I know it's kinda late but happy birthday!

I’m so proud of all you’ve accomplished, but I’m more proud that you’re my friend. Happy birthday! stay gold! (:

What is this story that tells me i'm fine?

It adds color to my pages, like a sweet little nursery rhyme... 

 I'm lucky for having them in my life I know my life would suck without them...

my family and friends ofcourse! I can't picture myself without them they're like my other half, it was like feeling so incomplete on a friday night eating your favorite food, singing your favorite song and dancing your favorite beat, it's all not the same without them! That's why I'm really thankful because God is really G R E A T ! I can't stop thinking about my dream last night it's kinda weird but it makes sense, there are two strange people involve, A nun and A woman. I don't even know them they just keep on following me where ever I go, and it's weird when I hugged the nun, kneel and cry then I asked "Does Mary loves us, what does she say before she died?"- weird, why'd I asked that kind of question I don't even think about it by the way, then she answered "Mary leaves us with a goodbye,you must praise God and Offer your life to him".

Self killing not self healing

Yeah, Facebook ruins my mood it is my fault though, I keep on visiting his Facebook just to see what's going on? what's new? and it's a way to recall all the stuff but it is self killing not self healing. Why do I keep myself checking out his wall? is there any sense at all? I'm just wasting my time for that and it will just hurt my feelings but no matter how hard i try to avoid myself from doing it so, I just can't. I already deleted him on FB but he added me last week, I thought that he will talk to me by sending me messages but I was wrong. It's funny waking up one morning from a dream and it became true, On a night before seeing that he added me, I dream t about it already that he added me on FB and messaged me but the thing that is different from a dream and reality is that he didn't messaged me. hahaha! okay I think this is R E A L I T Y :)


ijustwanttosaythatireallymissyouandseeingyourpicturesonfacebookbreaksmyheartsoimightunfriendyouonFBbye!

Why can't you look me in the eye, for one last time?

It's funny knowing that you're still fine, I can reach April already so I think I could see you around accidentally? actually, I want to know how does it feel to see you again, you know I wasn't able to see you for like ages, I think the only thing that is different is that when we see each other, there will be no connections, no more warm conversations it would be like having a simple look and smile, that's it. I want to hear that you're having good time with your  friends, FRIENDS ALONE, no special attention for the coolest girl you have been met? that is the only thing that bothers me at the moment. Seeing your pictures on Facebook makes me think about you all the time and it is kinda hard for me to say that I really miss you and I want to go back to the old times but I think it's too late, we're better off as friends, that would be better for our situation besides I'm the one who decided to let go and I should stand through it and I know I can do it. All that I want is to have a day with you to talk about stuff but it is impossible. So yeah? See you around when April hits the calendar :)