Six feet under

"Coins make a sound when dropped, but paper bills won't"-- when your value goes up, keep your self silent and humble.

I don't want to be recognized as high as a mountain and be criticized and pulled down by foes.


I grew up bearing this in my mind, I'm a low profile person and I think I should remain like that because I don't want to fall six feet under. There are certain things that I knew and noticed, those people who were born just for fame and money, wants to be recognized all the time, they were like unbeatable and they will do everything just for it even destroying people--Close friends.


I'm not jealous or something, i'm just keep on thinking about it. 

WHY?
you know, they intend to do ANYTHING just to won the game.




LIFE
it is not about how popular you are, it is not how many medals you've won, it is how you view LIFE as a FINE SUNNY DAY with FLOWERS everywhere together with people you LOVE even without MONEY.
 it is how you put clean dignity and CONTENTMENT.

Tech deck

Last March 7, 2011 my mom went to SM Megamall to buy something so I think of something that my mom would buy for me as her "pasalubong" then this stuff pop-up in my mind and ask her if she could buy me Tech decks at Toy Kingdom and yeah here it goes.

One of my first Tech decks :D

3 of  4

Helping me to put riser pads :D

A Powell one, but I badly want ZooYork :( I won't let my mom hear anything or even read this blog because she might get angry at me haha. I don't really like it though, imma buy Zooyork,DGK,Krooked,etc next time, by myself. :D

Pancakes

Doesn't look good :D

It's a fine sunday morning and i'm with my Dad's house, I woke up 10:30 in the morning and he's not there, he went to the market to buy something. 

It was the very first time to spend time with my dad like this, we talked about stuff and yeah, we decided to cook pancakes for breakfast and I think it's fun!

I ate a lot :D

Pancakes, anyone? :))))))

Giant piles of melted ice cream

I thought of eating ice cream today but i didn't do it. 

I'm craving for ice cream though and yeah just saw this article about ice cream and thought of posting this for everyone :D

hurricane ike took out the power in many places, including grocery stores. sadly, all of their ice cream and tv dinners melted :(

I know it's kinda late but happy birthday!

I’m so proud of all you’ve accomplished, but I’m more proud that you’re my friend. Happy birthday! stay gold! (:

What is this story that tells me i'm fine?

It adds color to my pages, like a sweet little nursery rhyme... 

 I'm lucky for having them in my life I know my life would suck without them...

my family and friends ofcourse! I can't picture myself without them they're like my other half, it was like feeling so incomplete on a friday night eating your favorite food, singing your favorite song and dancing your favorite beat, it's all not the same without them! That's why I'm really thankful because God is really G R E A T ! I can't stop thinking about my dream last night it's kinda weird but it makes sense, there are two strange people involve, A nun and A woman. I don't even know them they just keep on following me where ever I go, and it's weird when I hugged the nun, kneel and cry then I asked "Does Mary loves us, what does she say before she died?"- weird, why'd I asked that kind of question I don't even think about it by the way, then she answered "Mary leaves us with a goodbye,you must praise God and Offer your life to him".

Self killing not self healing

Yeah, Facebook ruins my mood it is my fault though, I keep on visiting his Facebook just to see what's going on? what's new? and it's a way to recall all the stuff but it is self killing not self healing. Why do I keep myself checking out his wall? is there any sense at all? I'm just wasting my time for that and it will just hurt my feelings but no matter how hard i try to avoid myself from doing it so, I just can't. I already deleted him on FB but he added me last week, I thought that he will talk to me by sending me messages but I was wrong. It's funny waking up one morning from a dream and it became true, On a night before seeing that he added me, I dream t about it already that he added me on FB and messaged me but the thing that is different from a dream and reality is that he didn't messaged me. hahaha! okay I think this is R E A L I T Y :)


ijustwanttosaythatireallymissyouandseeingyourpicturesonfacebookbreaksmyheartsoimightunfriendyouonFBbye!

Why can't you look me in the eye, for one last time?

It's funny knowing that you're still fine, I can reach April already so I think I could see you around accidentally? actually, I want to know how does it feel to see you again, you know I wasn't able to see you for like ages, I think the only thing that is different is that when we see each other, there will be no connections, no more warm conversations it would be like having a simple look and smile, that's it. I want to hear that you're having good time with your  friends, FRIENDS ALONE, no special attention for the coolest girl you have been met? that is the only thing that bothers me at the moment. Seeing your pictures on Facebook makes me think about you all the time and it is kinda hard for me to say that I really miss you and I want to go back to the old times but I think it's too late, we're better off as friends, that would be better for our situation besides I'm the one who decided to let go and I should stand through it and I know I can do it. All that I want is to have a day with you to talk about stuff but it is impossible. So yeah? See you around when April hits the calendar :)

The "X" factor.

Past is Past.

Yes, definitely!

I would like to share something that irritates me, last January 28, 2011 (friday) me and my friends decided to go swimming at La Vista Resort in Balanga and yeah I was with my Boyfriend that time, I don't expect that his X-girlfriend is there too, oh well this is great imma see his X-girlfriend and i'm pretty chilled.

I'm not expecting that his X would go in our place just to ask who is my boyfriend's girlfriend? how pathetic! why is she asking? she went in our place just to ask that question? how curious is she? luckily, i'm not in our cottage when she went there but if i'm there? darn, I think I could be a pain in her ass. :) She needs attention. lol

Lazy

Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything....

-Bruno Mars

It's a boring monday, I wasn't able to attend school because I don't feel good at the moment and right now, I can't think of anything to do so I decided to do blogging. I don't know what to write I cannot think of good words to say here and yeah I'm bored, super BOOORRREEEDDDD! 

I don't feel like using my phone right now, I don't feel like watching TV, I don't feel like walking outside the house, I don't feel like eating right now, I don't feel like talking to anyone right now, I don't know why? I'm friggin Lazy, hey! it's a Lazy monday. I think I should sleep for a moment, yeah i will sleep now :D KTHNXBYE.

Back to December

Maybe it's the beginning of goodbye

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
'Cause the last time you saw me
Still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
I think about summer And  all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right.....

Not like the movies

Just like the movies, love is scenematic and dramatic, how I wish I was the one who's directing my own love story with twist and turn at the beggining and would surely end smooth sailing, that's what I wanted it to be.

A love story that contains happy ending with my ideal partner in life but it is just not like the movies, no fairy tale dreams to wish just look at the brightside. We should live with reality not with fantacies.